Thursday, June 28, 2007

I miss people!!!

This is another aspect which makes my adaptation period hard, I miss people! When I traveled I met so many people and now it's all different. Well, I have my friends of course, but I still feel lonely and keen for more people, more colors in my life. In the "liberal" Tel-Aviv's party scene, such a need, just a friendly smile, is usually interpreted as a "hunt" (and I am being gentleJ). Smiling to people on the streets ends up with them questioning whether you know each other. I am surrounded by people, who speak the same language, share the same reality and the same basic needs for human affection, but we do not interact. Maybe because of our busy daily life, maybe because we afraid to smile to each other, I don't know. All I know that it makes me feel very lonely and sad.

"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection." - Dalai Lama

Be well!

P.S remember my "Happy 2007" wishes?

" The main reason I stayed here is LOVE. I am in love with people around me and they love me back. I walk the streets with a big smile on my face and everywhere people know me, "Hello Bopha", "Where you go, Bopha?" (Bopha is my new name, it means flower (which of course suits me a lot :-)). I am alone, but never lonely, thanks to the kind, carrying and loving people around me.
This is what I wish for the New Year, for us to be surrounded by LOVE. Love of our friends, neighbors, family, life partners, children, and just people around!!!"

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Nostalgia

You keep me going!!! Thank you for your kindness and care!!! You are special people to me; I love you with all my heart and miss you like crazy!!!
My brother, Den


My son, Sopea
My student, KimHong



I read these emails often, not because of the fancy English but because of the human kindness and love in them. They give me strength! (And I had a little to do with the fact they even write emails, and in English!!! - Yeh)

Check out these smiles
Cambodia - My Friends and Family


Be well!


Bopha


P.S I am still a bummer ...

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Fear is starting to crawl under my skin...

In the spirit of Brigit Jones (I have been watching it again :-(, this is bad, very bad sign) I can say:
Number of job interviews =0,
Number of job related phone calls = 0,
To sum it up = No JOB!!!

Fear is starting to crawl under my skin and it makes me feel very insecure. I don't enjoy my free time anymore; this job thing is like one big cloud over my head. I hate it!!!

Oh, I miss my Bopha days so much, I felt like a queen of the world back then. :-( :-( :-(